Before and After

My last post I posted this photo of my neighbors front yard. I posted it up on facebook and people started to comment. After someone said how beautiful it was I said something like can you imagine if I could make the sky blue or pink for that matter.

Bammmm, my friend Denise, granted my wish.  I have always been the person saying, well if the sky was gray that day then the sky is gray. It's Gods world why should I be the one to change it.  Well, the sky is blue now and I think she may have made me a believer!!!!!!!!!!

The Snow

 

It's still snowing here. This was at the start of the storm. The snow was like rain right about now. So I just saw a few things that looked neat & snapped the photo. They are kind of dark and these were with my crappy lens. Maybe if I get my butt out of the bed before the snow melts in the morning I will have some better ones to share.

Hearts Day

Today's photo of the day heart.  This photo is really bad. That rice crispy treat was red when I ate it. This sadly was my plate in pre school today after I had already ate a few things off of it.

Blue

When I saw today's photo for the day I knew what I wanted to put up here. It's not a new photo and some of you have already seen this but lot's of blue :)

The UN words

                     When life gives you lemons, make something pretty out of them before you turn sour.

I have been a little depressed lately. It's not the winter blues, because personally I love all the seasons, as long as the sun is shining. Really, I do not even have to look very deep to know what my issues are. I know them, just not sure how to fix them. I told myself I would not post any depressing post on here about myself. But if there is one thing I can say about myself that I am truly proud of is that I always keep things real. Well funny I should say that because that is what is bothering me. I'm having a very hard time being true to myself and not offending certain people and still being part of somethings that I truly enjoy.  Having a Disease that only attacks your self esteem teaches you early on about self-worth. You have to learn what you love about yourself because it surly is not your looks in the mirror. Also having this disease I have learned to seek out friends who are also not worried about their outer appearance.  Years can go by and sometimes I'm not even challenged by it. And then sometimes EVERYDAY you have something thrown in your face. It's what I call people feeding me poison. And when I'm drinking in their poison, I then start to face the UN words. The UN words are not kind. They show up everywhere I go. I hear their teasing voice in my head.

 Unworthy~ Ungrateful~ Unlovable~ Undeserving~ Unattractive~ Unkind which all leads me straight down the path to Unhappiness.

Don't worry I do not plan to walk down this path very long. I'll get back up soon straighten my wig and find an antidote.
                                                  Meanwhile I'll leave you with a question for yourself. Can people see your heart or just your reflection in the mirror?

Justice

                                                                              Justice

Last Wed at 10am we had to do one of the hardest things we have ever done as a family. We had to say good by to our family pet.  Our beautiful Justice. Having three dogs, Loner 11, Xena 9, and Justice only 4 1/2 we did not think we would have to say our goodbys so soon. Justice was just a stunning dog. Anyone who met her would tell us how beautiful she was. Her mom being a purebred Rottweiler and her dad a Golden Retriever Chow cross made for a very beautiful dog.

 

This was her boy. Her BFF. Her bed-mate.  And this photo makes me cry.

Stephen is doing ok. He is a very active child. But when he is bored, then he thinks about her and is sad. He understands why she is gone but yet, just wants his dog back.

Being the dog dork that I am, this has not been easy for any of us. It's very hard to look at these pictures and know that this is still so fresh, so fresh, that I can still smell her. Also while I'm dealing with my own pain it's so very hard to see your child hurting and sad and know there is nothing other then time that will make this any better. Justice you were a great pet. Thank you for loving us!

My sister sent this to Mikayla's facebook page. Not sure if she wrote it or where she got it from. I coped it and for some reason it doesn't get any bigger. Hope you can read it.

                                           RIP JUSTICE 4/9/2007 ~ 1/18/2012

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water, and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly, he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart. Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together...

Christmas card 2011 gone bad

 

Well I got a few photo's of them together on Christmas day, this may be the best one I got. At least they are having fun right?   I hope everyone had a blessed Christmas with their loved ones. Longer post to follow soon sis promise.