Before and After

My last post I posted this photo of my neighbors front yard. I posted it up on facebook and people started to comment. After someone said how beautiful it was I said something like can you imagine if I could make the sky blue or pink for that matter.

Bammmm, my friend Denise, granted my wish.  I have always been the person saying, well if the sky was gray that day then the sky is gray. It's Gods world why should I be the one to change it.  Well, the sky is blue now and I think she may have made me a believer!!!!!!!!!!

The Snow

 

It's still snowing here. This was at the start of the storm. The snow was like rain right about now. So I just saw a few things that looked neat & snapped the photo. They are kind of dark and these were with my crappy lens. Maybe if I get my butt out of the bed before the snow melts in the morning I will have some better ones to share.

Hearts Day

Today's photo of the day heart.  This photo is really bad. That rice crispy treat was red when I ate it. This sadly was my plate in pre school today after I had already ate a few things off of it.

Blue

When I saw today's photo for the day I knew what I wanted to put up here. It's not a new photo and some of you have already seen this but lot's of blue :)

The UN words

                     When life gives you lemons, make something pretty out of them before you turn sour.

I have been a little depressed lately. It's not the winter blues, because personally I love all the seasons, as long as the sun is shining. Really, I do not even have to look very deep to know what my issues are. I know them, just not sure how to fix them. I told myself I would not post any depressing post on here about myself. But if there is one thing I can say about myself that I am truly proud of is that I always keep things real. Well funny I should say that because that is what is bothering me. I'm having a very hard time being true to myself and not offending certain people and still being part of somethings that I truly enjoy.  Having a Disease that only attacks your self esteem teaches you early on about self-worth. You have to learn what you love about yourself because it surly is not your looks in the mirror. Also having this disease I have learned to seek out friends who are also not worried about their outer appearance.  Years can go by and sometimes I'm not even challenged by it. And then sometimes EVERYDAY you have something thrown in your face. It's what I call people feeding me poison. And when I'm drinking in their poison, I then start to face the UN words. The UN words are not kind. They show up everywhere I go. I hear their teasing voice in my head.

 Unworthy~ Ungrateful~ Unlovable~ Undeserving~ Unattractive~ Unkind which all leads me straight down the path to Unhappiness.

Don't worry I do not plan to walk down this path very long. I'll get back up soon straighten my wig and find an antidote.
                                                  Meanwhile I'll leave you with a question for yourself. Can people see your heart or just your reflection in the mirror?